Ending of practice is complicated. I don't want to leave my patients without good care, yet I want to be with my patients. I want to have more time with my children, yet I feel like I have betrayed my patients. In the seemingly never ending circle of guilt in my mind, I decided to write a letter to my CEO.
June 5,
2015
To my
beloved patients and staff of GRMC
One of
my favorite authors, Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote, “Do not be too timid and
squeamish about your actions. All life
is an experiment. The more experiments
you make the better. What if they are a
little coarse, and you may get your coat soiled or torn? What if you do fail, and get fairly rolled in
the dirt once or twice? Up again; you
shall never be afraid of a tumble.”
My
divorce has taken a tremendous toll on my spirit. Affecting my childrens’ little spirits, this
toll is more than I can physically bear.
The torment in their eyes when Daddy leaves, has no discrimination against
the multitude of tortures it forces onto my heart. When at the end of every visit, thoughts of
betraying my children plague my soul deeply, I plead for mercy from God,
freedom from heartache, rest and peace.
I feel
as if the Lord has opened my eyes to the correct journey now. Although I am in a wonderful place already,
surrounded by the most wonderful people on God’s green earth, my patients and
staff, and all those who are entrusted to care, I have a new journey. I must fulfill the obligations of being a
responsible father and man. I have
enjoyed intensely, every one of you who believed in me, and trusted me with
your care. Those of you who knew what I
was going through gave me strength and support I will never forget. You, who gave me shelter and food during the
darkest times of my life, I am forever indebted to.
I plan
to focus my energies on being available to my babies, as they desire to be with
me all the time. Therefore, I have given
Ray Reynolds, CEO of GRMC my 60 days- notice, and my last clinic day is
8/1/15. This isn’t permanent, as I may
very well return. But only after a new office manager has been hired. Please
understand and keep me close to your hearts and prayers. God bless you and keep you close.
Forever
humbled,
Justus
Turner Peters MD
Thank you Dr Justus Peters~ for providing not only the best medical care our family has ever received but for the genuine spirit of friendship & love you have given. That is something no one will ever be able to replace. You have been through so much with us (at times literally life & death) & I thank you for being there. I can't imagine not answering with your name when I am asked who is your doctor? I cried ~ yes cried when I read you were leaving. ~~ Yet I know you have been through so much & I don't know how you have been able to do what you have done. As David & I have said before "you are truly Amazing". You have been on my heart & in my prayers. I know how much you love your babies & they ~Anna & Luke are growing up so fast. You are such a wonderful Dad & pray that you are blessed with much more time with them to watch them grow and make those priceless memories. This time is so important to both them & you. Please know that David & I are here for you as friends & we do care about you and your precious family. ~ And we don't plan on this being ~ "Goodbye"~ Take care of yourself & wishing you much Joy & love~ Marsha
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